***Please don't think that this was easy.

I closed my eyes, willing away the images,

as I told Nathan a segment of my darkest secret.

I let the words flow, without hindrance.

I allowed the emotions to race back into my mind.

Raw terror.

I stopped blocking it.

because I knew I was safe now.

He listened to every word.

That was the hardest thing I think I've done as of late.

Secrets I've kept for too long kept hurting me.

I felt an actual release when I said it out loud.

It made it real, but it made it over with.

My breathing came easier.

The darkness faded out.

I made my mouth form the words I had sworn to never say.

And even though it was only a small fraction of the big picture,

Those words made all the difference.

From now on, I choose speaking over silence.

No matter how hard it may be.

I promise, to tell someone the whole truth.

Someday.