And yes,
I am sorry.
For everything
And I mean it,
so deeply.
So completely.
Every snide comment.
Every time I changed who I was,
And i listened to other people,
who told me how to act.
That's no way to act.
A bitchy girlfriend.
"He treats you bad,
You need to sass"
Ha, what lies.
Why did I listen?
I'm so stupid.
You treated me like a person,
for the first time in my life,
I didn't feel like a "woman."
I felt entitled to an opinion.
Until I started to act like a "woman."
Deservedly you treated me worse.
And I complained,
acted out more.
So I broke that bond
the special one I had with you.
I knowingly tore us apart,
as I listened to the whispers
of other voices.
Instead of my own,
Which I practiced silencing far to often.
Stupid Girl.
You've ruined every good thing that has ever come into your life.
You know this right?
The relationships you stained with secrets.
The memories tainted in blood.
And it really is all your fault.
Saying otherwise would be listening to those others again.
Have you learned yet?
You're apologies mean nothing.
He learned that quickly.
Now stop being selfish,
No one is going to believe you
when you say you'll change,
So don't ever expect to get it back.
Stop being so selfish.
Stop causing people pain.
Stop,
Before I have to stop you myself.
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