I Promise You Need To Know This (Sorry I can't say the words.)

This I Promise you,
Down to the core,
I need you.
I need you by my side.
I need your love.
I need your touch.
But right now,
I need your voice.


I love to please you,
You know that.
-Stop-
I Promise I'm selfish.
Its not all for you.
I do it for me.
Because I'm dying.


Dying for your praise
Dying for compliments
Dying to be told I'm beautiful
Believe it or not,


I Promise I'm self conscious
To the core
It doesn't change.
I'm not conceited,
But I need constant reminder
You said it before
But I need it further,
Often.
I don't lay naked
And watch you dress
because I'm lazy.
I'm waiting...
...

...

...

but that was then,
and I'm still waiting
For you to turn around-
pants halfway on-
and hop back onto my bed,
Just to hold me
Close to you
And look me up
And down
"You are the most beautiful woman I know"
You'd say.
Whether that's true is debatable
but that doesn't matter.
I'd still glow.
But its been almost a year
And,
I Promise,

That has never happened.

I promise,

after we fool around,

and you say I look sad,

I am.

But it's not what you think.

I Promise

I feel used,

again.

Is it that hard

To tell me you love me

When it counts the most?

Not when we get off the phone.

Not when you say good-night.

But when its you and me

alone.

And the rest of the world melts

away

And nothing else is important

To me

But you.

For me,

it doesn't seem that way,

for you.

Its like

Everything else

Is much more important.

Suck it and we're done.

No cuddles

No favor returned

You open your laptop,

Download music

And whatnot.

As I pretend to nap

Holding back the tears.

And I Promise

More than anything

I want this to work.

I love you and

I can't lose you

And you need to

Know this.

All of it.

For that to happen.

Cuz that's a Promise.