List

If i make a list, I might actually get something done.

so here goes nothing.

• DO HOMEWORK!
• -Finish portrait roll for photography
• -Finish product roll for photography
• -Do Nixon assignment for Hoffman
• -Write extra credit essay for Hoffman
• -Do the two "A Midsummer's Night Dream" papers
• -Find book ^^;
• -Study Spanish
• CLEAN ROOM
• -Go through random shit drawer(s)
• -Dust/Sweep/Vacuum. Hard core.
• -Wash windows and mirrors
• -Wash sheets/blanket/comforter
• Design red/white eye makeup for guard
• Buy folders, etc for guard
• Go to the library
• -Pay fines
• -Check out "A Tale of Two Cities"
• -Read this month's issue of "Teen Ink"
  
• --It's been a while...
• Figure out how not to get suspended..
• Buy sharpies
• Fuck bitches.
• Get money.
• Transfer shit from old computer to new one
• Save the bamboo plant
• go through pictures..
• finish off the jager
• have a party
• Send in some digitals to Walgreen's
• Spin
• Get better at slacklining
• Give TLC to nails
• Do pretty stuff with makeup
• Get a tan
• Get a hair cut?
• alkdnfonaosd
• ya knoe?
• download a youtube converter thingie
• bake?
• something?
• cakes?
• of the like?
• stop making a list?

All things to do within the next couple days..

*Items mentioned at the beginning of the list > items mentioned at the end of the list

Forget and Not Slow Down.

Living life in fast-forward.

Forget the rewind.

Never pausing.

Never stopping.

Too much playing.

I should take a break,

but I don't want to.

I can't slow down.

This is my launching pad,

to a less painful future.

Forget.

Drown it out.

Make new memories

(whether you remember them or not,

is not the point here.)

If I stop now I'm stuck.

I need to get ahead,

not catch up.

Something crazy is going to happen soon.

This summer will be

Wild.

Insane.

A constant party.

We will never die.

Forget,

And not slow down.

Fuck.

No.
No.
No no no no no.
Stop this shit right now.
It's not about me.
So fucking stop.
We're done with tears in this bedroom.
I swear to god...

....

Before I find out...

I'm going lose it if I'm not jr. captain.

I cried so hard last year. And I wasn't even eligible.

Uh-oh

I probably shouldn't have enjoyed that so much.
Fml.





Nothin but a woman.

Mistake?

I told someone.
Oh god.
I shouldn't have.
I thought I had learned to keep my mouth shut?
Apparently not.

Fuck.

Nights Like These

Nights like this one
I stay up too late.
I let my self remember.
I let my eyes spill,
tears stinging my cheeks.
All I feel is an incredible
urge
to kiss you.
A longing for your lips on mine.
One more time.
One last kiss.
Closure?
I never got it.
God damnit.
These lips are so empty
without your breath behind them.
Strengthening each syllable.
Giving the words purpose.
I'm making it.
I can get through the day.
I'm ok.
But I fear that without you
I'll never be more than ok.
I got into too much too fast,
and once you get a taste of love,
you can't give it up.
Its the strongest addiction out there.
Worse than any drug.
And on nights like this one,
I feel the withdrawls the hardest.
My body aches,
my stomach churns,
and I can't stop crying.
I'm a hopeless addict.

By the way, whomever said "its better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all" had obviously never "loved and lost". Your argument is invalid. Without ever loving, there would be nothing to be hurting over. Dear author of this quote: You are an arrogant, unloved, dick. Fuck off and go tell your pansy bull shit to someone who cares.